Monday, September 4, 2017. I went through all of my posts I wanted to publish. Checked, double checked, tripled checked, spell checked, microphone check, can I get a check? Seriously I had been working so hard you’d think I was collecting a check at the end of the week. I think that’s me claiming it y’all.
The day before we had a shin dig at the house celebrating our anniversary, the baby and the Labor Day Holiday. Just a little something we threw together last-minute but was so glad we did. We had a ball. Good food, good friends, good times and I wish I could say good wine but the way my uterus is set up … I’ll have to partake in the libations some time next year.
But in between prepping, cleaning, feeding my face and hosting, I would step away from time to time to work on the blog. I was tired but I knew I had to get this thing out into the universe. I had procrastinated for so long and the time was now even if I had a house full of people to entertain. I only had one story to finalize so I stay on top of it so I could launch on time.
I ran into some unexpected kinks. Such is life right? And by this time it was after midnight and just about everyone had left the house. I was a bit frustrated but I didn’t stress. Which, I have really gotten good about NOT doing. I was not going to be defeated. This was going LIVE even if it wasn’t all I thought it should be. I believed it would still make an impact and I would just make adjustments along the way.
At about 2 a.m. it was all the way live. I published seven stories. I said a prayer. And after about thirty minutes, I went back on the blog checking and double checking again. I mean what else was I looking to find? I don’t know. This is just important to me. And when something is important to you, you do it anyway, even if the odds are not in your favor. I finally, completely, for real this time, gave it to GOD at about 5 a.m.. I was exhausted.
Lately I’ve been going to bed really late but still getting up pretty early. I’m sure it has a lot to do with the pregnancy. I was up around 9 a.m. to release my social media posts. It was happening. I was letting everyone in. Sharing the good, the bad and the not so cute cause ain’t nobody ugly up in here. I was given this assignment for a purpose so much bigger than me. It’s not about being popular or perfect. It’s about me being real, humble, strong and sharing my experiences that I hope will touch your life in some way. Whether it makes you laugh or cry, wanna go natural or start a new venture — I hope it inspires you to want to live a full, happy and content life no matter what.
I have to admit I had a moment of skepticism, doubt maybe even fear. How will I keep this up? How will I manage to keep going when I don’t feel like writing or being inspirational. What will happen if I miss a day, or two or even a week of writing. Then God said look-a here miss ma’am who’s supposed to be Trusting me — you got this because I have it all.
So y’all I’m taking this one day at a time. If I never posted a thing after today, I believe that I will have still made an impact in some way. OOOH that rhymed. Ayyye!! But the response you guys have given me has been truly amazing. Thanks for subscribing, following my social media platforms, sharing and just caring enough to leave a lovely note of expression. It means the world.
There is still so much for me to learn. Right now I’m writer, editor, IT, admin, graphic designer, and creative director. Things will evolve as I go along but thank you for meeting me where I am today.